End of the Year

Well, first of all I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Joyous EID, Great Winter Solstice, and an excellent whatever holiday I may have missed!

The year is coming to an end and as I look back, it was an improvement on many issues. Things became much clearer and continued to move in the right direction. I will write more about this in my new year's blog.

I am coming up with resolutions that I can make then break before Easter. hahaha I will try to come up with 10 of them. Let's see how I do.

I have a feeling that 2009 will be my last year to blog. I don't need it as much as I used to. Things are getting better and I don't have as much bothering me that I need to get off of my chest.

Hope that is true!

Another Trip

I am planning my next trip. I know when I plan to take it and where to go, I am just figuring out how much it will cost. I am expecting to work 19 days in a row so the extra money will make paying for it easier.

My last vacation was so amazing. I was able to do a lot with very little money. I guess it is not how much you spend but who you spend it with. I should be able to take two weeks this time.

I want to get a massage..... or 3! hahaha I also want to get some Razon's halo-halo.

The thing I am most looking forward to is to spend more time with Arleah. Things are going great and getting better.

The future really does look brighter. I'm excited about it!

Good Things

Some good things have been happening lately. It seems like they just keep happening. I like the way things are going.

Thanks for making me laugh baby!!

A New Car

I am finally buying a new car on Monday. I will probably just get something small and cheap like a 2008 Chevrolet Cobalt or Aveo. I don't want to spent too much on a vehicle right now. I'm planning to buy and Escalade next year! hahaha

My current car is a 1996 Oldsmobile Achieva. It runs well but needs too many repairs so it would make more sense to get a new one. The trade-in value wont be much.

I'm excited to get this car. I haven't had a brand new car in about 6 years. I hope this one will last for 6 years.

Thanksgiving

I was finally able to have a holiday off. It is Thanksgiving here. I don't usually get holidays off so I was quite surprised when I found out I am not working.

I had some plans. I was going to spend time with my kids, chat with Arleah and most of all, EAT!!!! hahaha

Well, I wasn't able to do any of this.

Not a good day. Oh well, it is almost over. Tomorrow is another day.

The Christman Season

Well, it is here again. The Christmas season is upon us. Soon I will be working a ton of overtime. I wont have much time to do things but I will be able to earn some extra money. The overtime should end sometime in January or February.

I am glad I was able to take a vacation before the season started. I really needed it and I am sure I will feel that I need one afterwards. hahaha I know where I want to go and I think it is quite obvious to everyone that knows me where that is. I should be able to save enough to go there. I have a bunch of pictures and posted some. I will try to post more soon for those that would like to see them.

I'm not dreading this season as much as I usually do. Things are getting better, finally.

I am really looking forward to being with Arleah again. She knows why, I know why but nobody else does. I am sure I will be getting asked what the reason is. Hmmmmm, I wont tell so don't ask. hahaha

Getting Away

Well, I was finally able to get away for a while. I really needed a break from everything here.

It was a great time. I was able to meet more of Arleah's family and friends. They were all very nice and it was a pleasure for me. I was really surprised that most of the time when they were around me, they used English. Their English was not perfect but there was no problem understanding what was being said. I was really impressed by the way everyone tried. They knew I didn't know much Tagalog so they did their best.....thanks!!! I guess being smelly had something to do with it. hahahaha

The week I spent with Arleah was great. We didn't set the world on fire but still were able to have a great time. I wish I could have spent all of my time there with her but I had other things that needed tending. Thanks for understanding baby.

Hopefully I will be returning very soon. More on this later.

Thanks baby. I had a wonderful time.

Confused

I guess the obvious is not so obvious to everyone. I seem to have overestimated some people. Lesson learned. I will have to start pointing out the obvious from now on. Being silent and expecting people to think for themselves is not the way to go.

Busy Time

I just got back from a weekend visiting my son. It was great to see him again. He's doing fine and really making me proud. I was also able to meet Joker Arroyo. He seems like such a nice man.

This week I will be going on a vacation for a week to see Arleah. I'm really excited about that. It has been too long since we have been together.

See you soon baby!!!!

All About Me!!!!!

Sometimes I look back and wonder how I was ever able to do some of the things I have done. Sometimes I wonder why I did some of the things I did. I'm glad I am able to learn from my mistakes and make sure they will not happen again in the future. I just have to learn from all of my mistakes, not some of them.

Things need fixing. They will be fixed!

I can only imagine what the future holds.

Human Nature????

I think it is human nature to expect people to do more of what they have always done. There is a joke that a wife asks a husband to do something and he intentionally does it wrong so that he isn't asked to do anything again.

It sounds funny but that happens a lot. I work with a lot of people that are really lazy and don't do their job. It has become expected that these people wont finish their job. So who does finish it? Those that actually do work. These people are expected to do more work because they actually do their job. Is that fair? Why not blame the ones that don't work and make them do their job? Why not hold them responsible?

It also happens in other parts of life. People that are responsible are expected to be even more responsible and those that aren't are give a free pass. Why is that? Why aren't these people held to the same standards? Why are they excused from being responsible just because they never are?

I'm tired of it. It is time to hold the right people responsible for their actions and not expect others to cover for them. Start blaming the right people, not the easy one to blame. I'm finished keeping quiet.

October 9, 2008

Belated Happy Leif Erikson Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gading-a-ding-a-dergin!!!!!!

Music

I really enjoy listening to music. I will listen to most types of music with the exception of Country. I like 80's, 70's and heavy metal the most but I can even listen to the Carpenters. It just depends on my mood.

Today I was listening to some music on youtube. I was only listening to sad songs. I wonder why people do that. If I'm feeling sad I will listen to sad music. Wouldn't it make sense to listen to music that will make me feel better rather than make me feel worse?

When I used to play hockey I would always listen to heavy metal music before a game. It helped me get into a certain frame of mind. It helped me focus on one thing and block out all the distractions. I would almost get into a trance.

Music can really affect me and I am sure I am not alone.

Missing

Something is missing.

Coded

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Can you solve the code?????

Something's up

I can feel something in the air lately. Something is about to happen. I don't know what or when but I do know something big that will affect me for a long time will happen.

I'm excited about it. It is a good feeling.

Let's see........

Reading

I went to my daughter's classroom today to read to her class. She is the student of the week (which is rotated every week) this week. She asked me to read her favorite book "Hop on Pop" by Dr. Seus.

When I first arrived to her room she introduced me to a few of her classmates. She is in 1st grade and seems to be friends with all of her classmates.

When it was time for me to read she sat on my lap and we read the book together. I felt so good. She is my baby girl.

The class loved the book and made some nice comments after. It was a great time.

On a side note....good luck baby. I know you will shine!

Need, Want, Deserve, Earn

Sometimes I think about things I need, want, deserve and have earned. Often I put things in the wrong categories. hahaha

Needs. I often say I need a vacation. I guess technically I don't need one but I REALLY want one. I say I need a new car but I just want one. I need a car, but it doesn't have to be new.

Want. I want a vacation. I will be taking one so I guess I don't have to worry about this. I want new clothes and I want to fly business class when I take my trip. hahaha

Deserve. I deserve a vacation. Most people that work deserve a vacation. We all deserve a nice life. We all deserve to be treated with respect.

Earn. I know I have earned a vacation. This is the difficult one to determine. Did I earn a new car? Did I earn the right to buy myself things? Hard to figure this one out.

Change of Plans

This was the month I had planned to move to the Philippines a few years ago. I was really excited back then to leave my current job and pursue a simple life there.

The plan was to have a business up and running and to just work at that business. It didn't work out though.

I can't say I am disappointed anymore though. I was when I first realized it wasn't going to happen but things have changed since then. I can honestly say that I think the future will be better now than how I had planned it years ago.

I guess there is a silver lining in everything. Sometimes a bad thing can lead to better things.

I'm blessed. Things are getting better and are only going to get even better than they are now.

A Good Weekend

So far it has been a really good weekend for me. It may sound strange that I am talking about a weekend on a Thursday but my weekend is Wednesday and Thursday! hahaha

Some good things have happened. I have been able to talk with Arleah and that always puts me in a good mood.

My vacation was approved so I can progress on that.

I made an appointment for something that should have been done a long time ago.

I'm glad I can blog about things I want to and not about other things. FINALLY!!!

Hope the week is just as good.

Also just want to say "HI BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

One of Those Days

Did you ever have one of those days whey things seemed like they were going well and then all of a sudden something happens to make it turn?

Sometimes it takes a lot of work to change it back but in the end it is worth it. I hope I did enough to get it back. It would be nice to have a few good days.

Truce

I was asked for a truce. Sure, no problem. As long as I stop getting comments like the ones I have been getting, I wont have to respond to them and my blogs will go back to being about different things.

So to everyone that has been posting those comments, your aunt wants you to stop. You have to ask yourself if you are commenting for yourself or for your aunt. The ball is in your court. Think before you comment.

Tattoos

I have always wanted a tattoo. I don't know why, maybe because I think they look tough. hahaha. Anyone that knows me knows that I am tough on the outside and a cream puff on the inside!

Some ideas I had were a dragon, my kid's names, Arleah, batz maru (if that is how you spell it, hahaha), "DFWM", and even a wizard. Any suggestions?

My Uncle Eddie had a few tattoos. I always liked to look at them and thought they were cool. One i remember is a naked woman in a martini glass. It is on his forearm.

I probably never will because I hate needles and to be honest, I am a bit old to be getting one now.

Maybe next life!

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

I just want to shout out a big HELLO! to everyone that has visited my blog. I have had visitors from all over the world including the following:
Alden, NY
Buffalo, NY (probably a suburb)
Rhode Island
Massachusetts
Ohio
West Virginia
Canada
Australia
Malaysia
India
and The Philippines (including, but not limited to, Nueva Ecija, Cebu, Manila, and Laguna)

Welcome to my blog and feel free to return!!!!

Enjoy!!!

Arleah

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Football

Well, football season starts in less than 3 weeks. Every year about this time i used to get too optimistic about my Bills. I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much this year but I'm getting a good feeling about the upcoming season.

With a new quarterback and some new additions to the team, it should be a better season. Hopefully we can break the string of years without making the playoffs.

Hmmm, it seems I am going back to my old ways of being optimistic. Cool!

Planning

Don't you just love when you plan something and it all seems to fall into place and things happen just the way you wanted them to? It really is a good feeling!

Things are looking good, just as planned.

I Had To Laugh

I was looking at some psychology terms and I came across this one....

Megalomania (from the Greek word μεγαλομανία) is a historical term for behavior characterized by delusional fantasies of wealth, power, genius, or omnipotence - often generally termed as delusions of grandeur. The word is a collaboration of the word "mania" meaning madness and the Greek "megalo" meaning "very large", "great", or "exaggerated", thus combining to denote an obsession with, either in the form of irrational perceived need for or preoccupation with in one's own estimation having and/or obtaining, grandiosity and extravagance (especially in the form of great fame and popularity, material wealth, social influence or political power, or more than one or even all of the aforesaid) and accompanying complete desirous and bombastic abandon; a common symptom if not the key diagnostic feature of megalomania.
It may be a symptom of manic or paranoid disorders.[citation needed] However it is not considered a distinct mental disorder of itself according to the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. One of the significant examples of megalomania in literature is the character of Mr. Kurtz from the Joseph Conrad's complex novella Heart of Darkness.

I just started to laugh uncontrollably.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

The Future

I'm looking forward to the rest of this month. Some good things are going to happen.

By the end of the month I should be able to plan things that have been pending for a long time. Some things will be paid off and other things will be settled. My son will be going to college to start the next part of his life and I am sure learn more details about his past.

I will be taking a vacation soon after and then start planning for the future. Start saving again and moving forward.

The future looks promising.

Amazing

I am amazed with just how out of touch with reality some people are.

Yawn, this is getting boring.

Countries Bucket List

I decided to make a list of all the countries I want to visit before I kick the bucket, hence the bucket list! I put them in order of most eager to see to least.

1. Philippines - I have been there so many times but I think it is obvious why I want to go back there, Arleah is there. hahaha

2. Thailand - I want to see all the ancient ruins and Phukett.

3. Hong Kong - Who doesn't want to go to HK???

4. The Galapagos Islands - All of the unique animals there would be so cool to see.

5. Italy - So many cities I would like to see including the homeland of my great grandparents.

6. China - The wall, the forbidden City, the panda

7. Vietnam - I have always been fascinated with this country, probably because of the war when I was growing up.

8. Germany - Oktoberfest!!!!!!!

9. Kenya - African Safari

10. Japan - Kyoto and Tokyo past and present!

11. South Korea - I want to see the DMZ

12. Belize - The Mayan Ruins

13. The Netherlands - Ok, so pot is legal there but that isn't why, it just looks nice there.

14. Taiwan - I have friends there and I would like to see the other China

15. Mexico - I have been here too but just Tijuana, I want to see the other Mayan ruins.

16. Brazil - CARNIVAL!!!!

17. Romania - Dracula's homeland!

18. Australia - All the different animals and it looks cool.

19. Macao - To see if it is like Hong Kong

20. Spain - I want to see a bullfight

21. Panama - It just looks like a party country!

22. United Kingdom - Big Ben, the art, the Thames

23. UAE - It looks gorgeous

24. Sweden - The Nobel prize and ABBA!!!

25. Greece - The ancient ruins

26. India - The Taj Mahal

27. Israel - all the religious places

28. Egypt - the pyramids

29. Kuwait - Looks nice

30. Saudi Arabia - Why not?

The list had 45 countries but I think this is enough. hahhaha

Golfing

FINALLY!!!!! I was able to go golfing yesterday for the first time in about 9 or 10 years. It felt good to get out and do something for a change.

My friend Joe asked me to join him and his son, Brandon, for a round of golf. I was excited because I really miss playing and I have really needed to get outside and do something to get rid of this gut I have acquired over the past many years! hahaha.

I shot an 89. Those of you that know golf know how good of a score that is for someone that hasn't been out on the links for 10 years. I have to confess, though, that it was a par 3 course! hahaha. The score is not so good now, is it? Oh well, it was a really good time and I want to go again. I was able to get 3 pars, one of which was capped with a 90 foot putt.

Brandon made an amazing birdie with a beautiful chip shot from about 40 feet away. Joe had the best score.

I'm all red on my arms now from sunburn but it isn't too bad. It's a price I am willing to pay to have a good time. hahaha

One down, 4 to go.

The Frog and I

When I went outside today, I happened to notice a frog in the grass. I went over to look at him and, to my surprise, he started to talk. Here is how the conversation went.

He said "Pat, I know things are tough for you now but think about this. When I was first brought into this world, I looked like pond scum. I later hatched and became a tadpole. At that point in my life I looked like a large black sperm! I then grew legs and lost my tail. My gills disappeared and I grew lungs. Finally, I left the water i was hatched in and began to eat bugs and flies and all sorts of insects. Now I have a shiny skin, a long tongue and big, beautiful eyes."

What he said got me to thinking. I thought "Why am i listening to a stupid frog. Did I take acid and not know it?"

After that I just stepped on the frog and left for work.

The moral of this story is never talk to frogs, they just don't make sense!

Summertime!!!!!

Well, it's summer here. Hot weather, my son's graduation and the kids being home all day. I love summer because I can go outside without wrapping up in a coat that weighs as much as I do! hahaha

Last week my oldest son graduated from high school. I can honestly say that there was not one parent more proud of their child than I am. Every time I think about what he has accomplished I am just amazed. Soon he will be off to Yale. I'm going to miss him a lot. Two summers ago we spent a lot of time together and even went on a University road trip! We saw Yale, Harvard, Brown, MIT and decided to take a little side trip to Maine. We ate the "best chowder in New England"! It was just great. I will never forget that trip and how we just had a great time. I hope I can get a few days off this summer just to spend time with the 8 lb. 10 oz. baby that has grown into a 6'1'' young man. I'm so excited for his future and yet a bit sad to think he wont always be here.

This summer looks like last year though. I only had 6 days off all summer. So far it looks like I may have 10 days off. Of course, those wont be in a row, they will be scattered throughout the 2 months. Hopefully I can save some of that overtime money. I have plans for late September or early October.

Some other things I want to do this summer are go fishing, golfing, go to Toronto and maybe even see a movie. I would also like to go bowling. hahaha

We will see. I probably wont be able to do any of these things because of my work schedule but who knows. There have been a few surprises in my life that I never expected so never say never!

Another Surprise

Well, I had another great surprise today. I was checking Arleah's blog and there it was. ME!! A picture of me. You can't imagine how I felt. Things are getting better. Thanks baby. MWAH

The Weekend

It was a good weekend. On Saturday we had a party for my oldest son. He turned 18 on Sunday so he invited a few friends over and 3 of his cousins and his cousin's gf came over. It was a really good time playing games and eating. There was pizza, chicken wings (Buffalo wings for those of you not from Buffalo), taco salad, BBQ hamburgers, carrot cake, brownies, potato casserole, and cookies. Everything was good. I always enjoy playing loaded questions with him and my nephews. Some of the answers are so funny!
On Sunday we went to lunch to celebrate his birthday and Father's day. We had Mexican food. It was very good and the price wasn't bad. After that my son had to try the slot machines now that he is 18! hahaha. Don't get hooked! I took the two little ones to watch the horses while he and his mother played slots for a while.
for father's day I received a beautiful picture of my daughter that she made in school. There were hearts around it and the picture of her is just so pretty! My younger son gave me a plant that is really cool. It looks like a face and the hair is grass. hahaha. I was really happy with my two gifts.
The week is here again. It shouldn't be too bad this week since I will have 3 nights off. Yesssssssssssssssssssss!!!!
Oh, by the way, I didn't get the camera or computer or anything on my list! hahaha No surprise there!

Things I Want

I was just thinking of some things I want to get in the near future. These are all just material things. In no way should anyone read this and think of my Father's Day gift (ok Chief?).

1. A new computer. I think this one has served it's purpose but it is old and a new one would be great. I can just let the kids use this one to play games although they will probably take over the new one. hahahha

2. A new fishing rod, reel and tackle. I haven't gone fishing in a while. I used to love it because it is so relaxing. I don't eat much fish but I do love catching them....when I actually catch something!

3. An Ipod. I love to listen to music and I can use it at work.

4. A new car. Yeah, dream on! hahahaha

5. A digital video camera. It would be nice to have one. I can use it on number 6!

6. A vacation. I just need to get away for a while. This will probably happen in September or October.

7. A massage. It feels so good after and right now my body could use it. All the bending at work has wreaked havoc on my back.

8. Some new clothes. I like to dress nice when I can. I don't mean a suit or formal wear but some casual clothes to wear on my occasional day off.

9. A new cellphone. The one I have now is over 2 years old and the keys are not always working!

10. A cheese and pepperoni pizza from Bozana's. If you ever had one, you know why. The pizza is covered in pepperoni and I mean COVERED!

Most of these things I can just go get but for some reason I don't like to spend money on myself. hahaha.

That's funny!

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wait...wait...wait

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Oh my God, I fell out of my chair. My ribs hurt from laughing so much. My eyes are watering!

Thanks! I haven't laughed this much in a long time!

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Coming events

I'm thinking of what to do this weekend. I know it is only Monday but I'm excited about it already.
I will only have Wednesday night off again (it seems like I'm always working Thursdays now). I will probably just relax and hopefully get some sleep.
I want to get something this weekend. I don't know if I should get a new computer or a video camera. There are a few other things I want to get too but those two are probably the most needed. Once Sunday comes I will probably have neither though. hahaha
Saturday I want to go to a movie. The kids will want to see Kung Fu Panda, I am sure. It looks ok so maybe I will take them to see it. I also want to see a few other movies but none of them are for kids other than Indiana Jones. Maybe take the kids out to lunch or dinner too.
Sunday is Father's day and it is also my oldest son's birthday. We will probably go out for lunch and I know I will be working at night (probably some overtime too!)
Well, that's just how I feel now. I know it will all change except for Friday. It always does.

Trouble

Let's say that you have an argument with someone. Would you try to make that person's life miserable or would you just ignore what they do?

I usually just ignore the person. What they do really doesn't matter to me. Why would I waste my time hunting them down and waste more time trying to get them upset or angry? What happens if i spend all of this time and energy just to find out what I did had no affect on that person? I think that would make me even angrier.

I think moving on is the best thing to do. Why let someone else control your life?

I work with some people that wont retire until their ex-spouse dies. Well, what if they die first? hahaha Why would anyone let anyone else do that to them? These people let their exes control what they do. They force them to work many more years rather than retire and enjoy their lives.

Move on. Leave the past behind you. There is so much more to life that trying to upset other people. Ignore those that try to put you down and try to disrupt your life. If you do, the things they do will eventually backfire on them and you will be the one smiling.

Some things to ponder

Did you ever wonder why there are two spellings of one (one and won), three spellings of two (to, too, and two) and only one spelling of three?

Why does cargo go by ship and shipment go by car?

Can there be such a thing as a "jumbo shrimp"? Is it jumbo or is it a shrimp?

If you are "head over heels in love" does that really mean anything? My head is always over my heels!

Why is it called fasting? It seems to go by so slow when I do that!

If there are 60 seconds in a minute, 60 minutes in an hour and 24 hours in a day, how come I have no time for anything?

If I walk a mile in your shoes, do they become my shoes and would you really want them back?

If a hole has nothing in it, why are they called donut holes?

Why is a cow called beef, a pig called pork and lamb called mutton? I guess it doesn't sound good saying "give me some roast cow"

What kind of jokes do they say in Poland? What kind of jokes do blonds tell?

Do Welsh people ever pay up on bets?

If there are over 6 billion people in the world, why do we even bother with the few that bother us?

If the headline on an advertisement reads "Sale! Last Week!" does that mean you missed it?

If i can buy a bag of 300 napkins for $1.50 why do women have to spend $7.00 on just 24 napkins?

When two planes have a "near miss" does that mean they actually collided?

Being a Wise Ass

Did you ever do something just to piss someone off. Not really to instigate something but just to retaliate. I like to do this. I like to play practical jokes on people that just don't know when to stop. I think it is really funny sometimes.

Some people take me too seriously. They know me better and know how I am almost always joking or setting up a joke. It may not be funny, but it is still a joke.

Oh well, I guess that makes the joke even funnier.

strange dream

Sometimes I have dreams that tell me about something that will be happening in the very near future. I can tell when I have one of these dreams because of the feeling I have when I wake up. I also remember certain things about the dream that make me believe it is telling me something. All of my dreams are not like this, just some of them.

Today I had one of those dreams.

In the dream I was with my grandfather. My grandfather died over 10 years ago. In the dream he was looking for me. He said that he didn't really die, he just had to clear up some family business and had to go into hiding for a while. My grandfather is 100% Italian. His parents came to America from Italy. Because of this background I knew that the "family business" had to do with both our family and a Mafia connection. Now all my life I had believed that there was no connection between my family and the mafia but in this dream there was. Of the 5 grandsons my grandfather had, I was the closest to him. I was the most "Italian acting" of the grandsons and I think he liked that. My grandfather was also very short. He always reminded me of a lawn gnome. hahaha. It was good seeing him again, even if only in a dream.

He then took me to meet someone. The scenery was very futuristic. We went into a building that was actually underground and in the desert. He introduced me to a man. At first he told me he was my future son-in-law. This man was tall and was wearing an Air Force uniform. He said he was a commander in the U.S. Air Force. I only have one daughter so I assume it was her husband. Later he told me this man was my son that I didn't know about. If this was my son, he would be about 10 years older than my oldest son. It would mean that I was about 12 when he was born. I know my life and either that is impossible or I did something when I was 12 that I never knew about (think about that one! hahaha). I told him I was very pleased to meet him then I turned to my grandfather and said "If this is my son, I love him but I want to go back to my other kids in the present."

I forgot to mention that the last time I had a dream of this grandfather was 3 days before he died. In that dream I knew it meant that he was going to die.

What I gathered from this dream is that something will happen in the next 3 days that will affect my future. It will have a great impact on me and my family. By the feeling I had when I woke up it should be positive.

There was another part to the dream but I have to keep that between me and the one that was in it. I am sure when she reads this she will ask me about it. hahaha

fruits

I was sitting on the couch one day and I was thinking about different kinds of fruits. I have always loved certain fruits and hated others. Oranges, pineapple, mangoes, pomegranates and apples are some of my favorites.
One time I bought some oranges, a pomegranate, a mango and an apple and cut them up. I mixed it with some cool-whip and put it in the refrigerator for a few hours. It was really good. I should try making that again.
I like to put cinnamon on some fruits too.
I don't know why I wrote this, I just haven't added anything in a while. hahaha

I want to say hello to my newest reader too! I don't know if there are 2 new readers or just one but hello anyway!

As to my long time reader, well, hope you laughed at this one! hahaha. Thanks for mentioning me again in yuor latest blog! AM I really very nice? hahaha. Well, you are too! Hope to see you soon.

Stalking

Well, I was told that someone in the Philippines is snooping on me so this is for you.

Congrats! You found this! You must be so proud of yourself. What I wonder is if you have a life? Don't you have anything better to do? Do you think you are helping anything? Well, you're not and the one you are making it worse for is not me but the one you are snooping for.

If you have any guts, email me. Show your face. Otherwise, you are just a gossip that has no life.

Problems

As we go through life we all have problems that come up from time to time. When we are in a relationship the problems can be with one person, the other or both. How we deal with these problems shows a lot about how we really are.

Some people want to solve all the problems. They take it upon themselves to solve everything. Weather this is because they want to help, they think they wont get help, they think that only they can solve the problem or all three are reasons they are like this. Usually they can come up with a solution or answer and everything is well. The bad part about this is when they can't solve it. Things just get worse for these people. Also, eventually they get exhausted trying to solve every problem that they finally give up.

Some people leave it to their mate to solve. They think they are trying but really don't. Weather it is fear of being wrong or just not capable of doing it, they rely on another person always. They show their appreciation when the problem is solved and they think all is well. The problem with these people is that, like above, the solver may just become too exhausted and finally give up on everything.

Then there are the people that say "Come on, give me your hand, let's do this together." These people realize it is much easier for two to solve a problem than just one. They want to be there for the other person and they want that person there for them. This kind of person will never worry when something arises because they know that together, they can solve anything. They may not have all the answers but they will never stop trying.

I have found that person. Thanks for taking my hand. Thanks for pulling me up. Knowing you are there for me I can get through this. You are amazing.

Surprises

Well, today was one of those average days. I wasn't in a bad mood but I wasn't in a good one either. Not much was going on and not much was expected. That all changed in a heartbeat.

My girlfriend and I have been a couple for over a year now. Things are going great and I am really looking forward to a future with her in it. We really have a great time when we are together and everything seems so right. It feels like we were made for each other.

Well, my girlfriend loves to write and blog. I would read every blog and sometimes laugh at what she is writing about, like slippers! hahaha Earlier in our relationship I would always read her blogs hoping to see something about me. There never was. At first it did bother me and when I asked her about it, she had a good reason. I accepted that reason. I could understand why and it was quite legitimate. Sometimes we have to look at things from the other person's perspective to understand everything.

Here comes the surprise. Today in one of her blogs she wrote "And my lovelife, yes, it's amazing." WOW!!!!!! Can you imagine how I felt? Something about me???? Well, that just made today a GREAT day. Nothing ordinary about today. I'm floating on the clouds now.

It's amazing how just a few words can change a person. I've been recognized. I am somebody online now. I exist. What an amazing feeling.

Thanks baby, you just can't imagine how much this means to me.

MWAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good month

So far this has been a good month. There have been a few minor things but nothing to get worked up about. I had a good feeling going into the month that somehow it would be different. I have gotten good news in several different areas and it feels like there is more to come.
Things are changing for the better.

You

I miss you................................................

Dreams

I have always wanted to travel. There are so many different places to go and things to see. There can be adventures, sight seeing, eating different kinds of foods and even just laying on the beach. Here are my top 10 places I want to go:

1. Hong Kong. I love the pictures I have seen of HK. The lights at night give it that look of excitement and that there would always be something to do. I would also like to try authentic Chinese food and what better place is there? hahaha

2. African Safari. To see all those animals in their natural habitat would be amazing. I would have to bring my digicam and probably 10 memory cards!

3. Las Vegas. Well, just look at some of those hotels. Each one is like a country of it's own. You can get any type of food there also. It's never boring there!

4. Phukett, Thailand. I have heard so many things about this place. Here would be a place just to get away from everything and just relax.

5. Rome, Italy. Food! Food! and more Food! hahaha. I can also go to Vatican City. This would be a real treat for me.

6. Israel. Well, I would be afraid to go here due to the violence but I would also love to see the places from the Bible. I am not religious but I think it would be inspiring to go there.

7. El Salvador. Much like the African safari, this would be a jungle safari!

8. Australia. The outback, crocks, koalas and kangaroos. I'll have a few shrimp from the barbie!

9. Bangkok. I want to see the ancient ruins there. I love history and that would be just amazing to see.

10. Belize. Don't know if I spelled that right but I would love to see the Mayan ruins there.

There are so many more places. I know I can come up with over 100 if I wanted to. Now all I need is the money! hahaha

anyone care to join me??

A Change

I noticed that some of my blogs have been negative lately. Well, it's about time to change that.

I'm in a GREAT mood today. I'm in love and so happy with her. Work was easy today. Everything looks to be getting better. The future looks bright for a change!

Grow up and think!

Some people can be so selfish. They always think of themselves and not how they affect or are treated by others. They can have something as close to perfect as they can find yet still they can find something wrong.
Life is not perfect. Things will not always go the way we want them to. Sometimes we have to think before we complain. Just because something little goes wrong, that doesn't give you the right to complain about it. Put things into perspective. Think of what is bothering you. Is it worth complaining about? Is it realyl an issue? Do you do the same thing but don't realize it?
We tend to expect our partners to be perfect and mindreaders. Are we so perfect that we can demand that from our partner? I don't think so. wise up or you might lose the best thing in your life!
I said this to myself when I looked into the mirror today.

Sorry.

Saying what you mean

I was talking to an old friend the other day and she told me that she and her bf had broken up. I asked what happened and she told me they had an argument and at the end he asked her if she still wants to be his gf.
I asked what she said and this is what she said "I told him no thinking that he would try to convince me to stay with him."
WHAT???????????????? Was she CRAZY???? Why on earth would anyone do something so stupid? It's like that song by The 4 seasons "big girls don't cry". It backfired in the song and it backfired on her. Now she is in a mess because the guy she loves thinks she is just playing with him.
People should just say what they feel, not say things to get a reaction if they don't believe what they are saying. This would stop a lot of problems.

Bad Feelings II

Well, I knew it. Something bad has happened.
I really hate when this happens.

To my baby, I love you Arleah. I miss you so much hon.

Bad Feelings

Did you ever have one of those days when you just know you are going to hear bad news or something bad is going to happen? Today is one of those days. I don't know what causes it but it usually is justified. I hope it isn't too bad.

I don't know what is worse though, finally getting the bad news or the waiting beforehand.

Oh well, bring it on!!!!! Let's get this over with.

Better days are ahead.

The New Year

Well, it's the beginning of a new year and at this time I usually reflect back on the past year and look forward to the new one. I like to look back and see what mistakes I have made and how I could have prevented them. I think about the good things that have happened and the not-so-good things. I also try to plan what I want to accomplish this year and how to go about doing it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. It seems that when I rely on myself only, I can accomplish more than if I rely on help from anyone.
Here is what I came up with.
Well, first the bad things. I went from working days back to nights again. The pay is better but I really hate working nights. It's hard to get a good sleep and everyone thinks you have all day to do things for them. After I clear up a big personal issue, I will try to transfer to days.
Another bad thing, my mother had a heart attack. She is doing better now but it was really scary. This isn't her first one and I was worried that it might be bad. I had to cancel my vacation but that is really secondary because it is my mom and her health. I was so happy with the way Arleah handled it. She was kind, understanding and just so sweet. I don't think she has a selfish bone in her body. That's just one of the many reasons I love her so much.
A third bad thing? Well, I was in a car accident. I totaled my car and injured my back. I have healed completely and I have a different car now.
Now for the good things.
I was able to meet the most wonderful woman in the world last year. She is just amazing. We really hit it off when we first met. I am sure you have read all the things I have said about her. hahaha. I think I sound obsessed! At first I was a bit worried that it was just infatuation. She is sexy and so pretty so was I just letting that interfere with how she was as a person? Well, there is no doubt just how wonderful a person she is. She treats me with respect, dignity and makes me feel like I can accomplish anything with her by my side. If I were to write about her only, I could fill this blog, and the next one, and the next one, and the next one and....hehehe.
another good thing, well, I was able to pay down a LOT of my debt. It has been weighing on my mind a lot so it was nice to see where I was January of last year and where I am now. I should have that problem solved by year end or earlier. That is exciting.
My kids are with me. I love my kids. Every night when they kiss me goodnight or wave goodbye when I take them to school I feel so good. If that wasn't good enough, my oldest was accepted into one of the top 3 universities in America. I'm so proud of him.
Did I mention that I met the most wonderful woman in the world? Hmmmm, I guess I did. hahaha.
Things are becoming clearer for me and my future. I know what I want and I think I know how to get it. I don't need miracles to get there, just not so many roadblocks. January has started off well and I have a good feeling about this year. Many changes in store and I believe, in this case, change is good.