Soul Mates

I always used to think that the term "Soul Mate" was being used by people that were just in love and feeling goofy. It's like calling someone "schnookums" or "babycakes" or any other term. I never thought there was really a soul mate. That was until February.
In February, I first met Arleah in person. We really hit it off. We had been chatting for a while and we became close and we seemed to get along fine after a period of just the opposite. Anyone can chat and get along with someone. That doesn't really show that you are compatible, it just shows that you can talk about things. When we met though, everything seemed to go great. We had good conversation and we really enjoyed each other's company. At that time, I thought there was a great chance that her and I would become a good couple with a really strong relationship.
Since then, we continued to chat and really got to know each other well. She got to know the real me and I got to know the real Arleah. Our feelings grew stronger every time we chatted. At first I was worried that it was only me that was feeling this way. I learned that it was mutual!
We were able to get together again in October. Well, it was just amazing. Everything we did just seemed like the right thing to do no matter what it was. We could have been eating, walking, swimming, talking, or even just sitting together and it seemed like there was nothing else I would rather be doing.
I was able to meet 2 aunts, 2 brothers, a sister-in-law, a nephew and 3 nieces. I never felt so comfortable meeting family before. Arleah didn't feel the need to watch over me as if to protect me from anything I might say wrong. She had a confidence about me that she was not afraid to let me be me in front of her family. I was also able to meet one of her friends for dinner. It was ease to talk to him since he talked British (hahaha).
All in all I had a wonderful visit spending time with her and meeting her friends and family. I hope next time I can meet more friends that I have heard of like Beng and Sara and some others she has mentioned. I also can't wait to meet her mother. She seems so nice on the phone and is really a pleasure to talk to.
Well, after this visit I really had to rethink my opinion of soul mates. I think I found mine.
I love you hon.

Boracay

Last month I went to Boracay with my girlfriend Arleah. It was amazing.

We stayed in station 1. The beach was beautiful. The white sand and crystal clear water was breathtaking. The weather was perfect. It seems as if God wanted everything to be the way it should.

The hotel/resort was very nice. There was a great pool and it was also right on the beach. The room was spacious and clean. The name of the place is Las Brisas. I highly recommend it to anyone that is going to Boracay. The staff was nice and the breakfast was tasty. I think it helped that we were the only ones there for one night.

When we went to the beach the sand was beautiful. I have never been on a white sand beach before. The sand was cool even though it was quite warm out. The water was warm when we first went in. It was so clear too. We were able to go out about 100 meters and still it was only up to my knees. Whle sitting in the water some fish swam up to us. I think one fish liked Arleah. It kept swimming between us as to keep me away from her. hahaha.

On morning we woke up early and went for a walk. We first walked along the beach and took in the scenery. What a beautiful morning. I couldnt ask for more than to be with my gf walking in paradise. We then walked along a walkway and saw some of the shops and places to eat. So many came up to us and asked if we wanted to go island hopping. Maybe next trip or maybe we can go on a banana boat! There was even a child selling something that made us promise to come back later to buy it. hahaha

The greatest part was the amazing woman I was with. Let me tell y ou about her. We first met in February. She was really nice and we really got along great. When I came back to see her last month, I think our feelings exploded. Everything went perfect. I can honestly say that we fell deep in love. Before this trip I know we both cared for each other and were in love, but not like now. We are perfect for each other.

Is she pretty? Of course! Sexy? Of course! Is that wy I love her? NO! She is so sweet. Never afraid to show her love. Making me feel so important. Everything is just right when we are together. It isnt her words but her actions. Anyone can say anything but when you do things naturally and it makes the other feel special, that is what we all need.

I love you Arleah. You are what i need in my life. Thanks for being you and for letting me be me.

Ching ching taba taba ching ching.

Everything is your fault hon. It is your fault I am happy. It is your fault I am in love with you. It is your fault I cant get you out of my mind. It is your fault I want to live forever with you by my side.

My honey

She took my heart
like a thief in the night.
I was willing
the feeling was so right.

Her eyes were dark
mysterious and black.
They said to me
there is no turning back.

Even her lips
made my heart full of bliss.
When I saw them
I had to have a kiss.

I held her hand
and looked at her face.
I felt her love
in her loving embrace.

Some times I think
I am just so blessed.
To have this girl,
how could I have guessed?

My life is great
she has made it better.
Her words and love
and her every letter.

I soon will be
holding her in my arms.
Kissing her lips
and falling for her charms.

No distance can
keep our love from blooming.
It is so true
there can be no fooling.

Every minute
every single second
I think of her
and my heart is beckoned.

You

As I sit here
thinking of you,
I can feel your love
so pure and true.

Remembering your smile
your eyes and face,
it brings me to
a happier place.

Like a ray of light
you brighten my day,
by saying you love me
and asking if I'm ok.

Every day and every night
you're always on my mind,
a love so true as this
is very hard to find.

And when I think
about we two,
all i can think of
is how i love you.

Here we are
many miles apart,
but you're not far
you're in my heart.

Baby, this is for you.

Was this just a dream?

I was waiting in the lobby of a nice hotel in Manila. I had just arrived an hor or so earlier. I took a shower and waited for her. All of a sudden she was there. I saw her walking up the stairs to the door. My God, it is really her. She walked in carrying dinner for both of us. She was even prettier than I had seen in pictures and on cam. That smile that had made me feel so welcome was on her face. Tonight was going to be good.....very good.
Well, I greeted her and she smiled at me. I could feel the attraction. We walked up to the elevator and made small talk. When we got to the room, she took dinner out and placed it on the desk.
I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She was just so beautiful. Her voice was so sweet. I felt so comfortable with her. I knew that this was the place I should be. Everything felt right. I couldn't have imagined it being any better. We ate and joked and enjoyed each other's company. It was a night I will never forget. I excused myself to the bathroom. When I got there, I washed my hands and looked at myself in the mirror. I said to my reflection "You are in love. She is perfect."
We enjoyed the rest of the night but sadly I had to leave in the morning. I wanted to be with her but did she want to be with me? Did I even come close to impressing her the way she impressed me? I hope she will see me again.
did you ever get the feeling that something was just perfect and if you died at that moment you would know that you experienced what love really is? That is how I felt.
Well, 2 weeks later I came back and I was late. I was held up by a sickness. I was so worried she would be upset and not see me. When I arrived at the hotel I begged her to come see me. Would she? Would she forgive me for being so late?
Well, I guess she was as excited to see me again as I was to see her. We spent the next 2 days together. We ate out, saw a movie and spent time talking and really getting to know each other. She was amazing. She was kind, humble, funny, sexy, sweet, pretty, outgoing, honest but most of all, she was always a lady. She didng degrade herself nor did she act like a tramp. She dressed like a lady, not a librarian but not a hooker either. She was just perfect. I could find nothing wrong with her.
I will never forget those 3 days and I am looking forward to more time with her. I know that if we both try, we can make it. I feel like I am somebody in her eyes. I am important. I am worthy of her love.
You know who you are hon, and thank you. You are wonderful.

Confused

Sometimes I let things bother me that I really shouldn't. I don't know why I do this to myself. I read into things that I probably shouldn't or that there is nothing to read into. I catch myself doing it but for some reason I cant stop.
All of my life I have been an optimistic person. I would always see the good in things and the positives. Over the past 10 or 15 years I have really started to change though. I seem to be more pessimistic about things and I seem to find things that bother me and let them bother me. Even after getting a reason for why things are the way they are, I still dont change my mood about them. I have even gotten to the point where I am questiong the good things that are happening to me and wonder if they are as good as they appear.
I guess when someone has been fooled for so long they tend to believe that they are being fooled again. I hate when I do this but I cant seem to stop it. I dont know if I was too trusting before or if I am not trusting enough now.
I hope that someday I will be back to the person I once was. I was always happy. I thought I was getting there but something has made me doubt that.
Maybe just saying this will help. Getting it out of my system. Hope so. I dont want to be like this.

My everchanging life

It wasn't long ago that I was always a funloving and joyous person. People would come to me if they wanted to be cheered up. I was always there with a joke or something stupid to say just to make them laugh.
Then some things happened. Just bad things that could have been worked out. Simple problems that, with help, would be meaningless. It was so sad that the one person that should have helped me ran away. We were married a long long time ago. When ever trouble happened, as things do in a relationship, we were able to work it out. Something changed in her a few years ago. She started to have a very negative outlook and it soon made me do the same. I started to get negative. Then when problems arose, she just left them for me. No more partnership. The stress of it all got to me and I became a very unhappy person.
Well, that all changed when I met someone. She has given me my confidence back and she makes me feel like i deserve better things. She has almost brought me back to the way I was. At least now I can see that better things are on the way thanks to her. The only thing she hasnt been able to help me with is my spelling! hahaha
Funny how things change.