Dreams

I have always wanted to travel. There are so many different places to go and things to see. There can be adventures, sight seeing, eating different kinds of foods and even just laying on the beach. Here are my top 10 places I want to go:

1. Hong Kong. I love the pictures I have seen of HK. The lights at night give it that look of excitement and that there would always be something to do. I would also like to try authentic Chinese food and what better place is there? hahaha

2. African Safari. To see all those animals in their natural habitat would be amazing. I would have to bring my digicam and probably 10 memory cards!

3. Las Vegas. Well, just look at some of those hotels. Each one is like a country of it's own. You can get any type of food there also. It's never boring there!

4. Phukett, Thailand. I have heard so many things about this place. Here would be a place just to get away from everything and just relax.

5. Rome, Italy. Food! Food! and more Food! hahaha. I can also go to Vatican City. This would be a real treat for me.

6. Israel. Well, I would be afraid to go here due to the violence but I would also love to see the places from the Bible. I am not religious but I think it would be inspiring to go there.

7. El Salvador. Much like the African safari, this would be a jungle safari!

8. Australia. The outback, crocks, koalas and kangaroos. I'll have a few shrimp from the barbie!

9. Bangkok. I want to see the ancient ruins there. I love history and that would be just amazing to see.

10. Belize. Don't know if I spelled that right but I would love to see the Mayan ruins there.

There are so many more places. I know I can come up with over 100 if I wanted to. Now all I need is the money! hahaha

anyone care to join me??

A Change

I noticed that some of my blogs have been negative lately. Well, it's about time to change that.

I'm in a GREAT mood today. I'm in love and so happy with her. Work was easy today. Everything looks to be getting better. The future looks bright for a change!

Grow up and think!

Some people can be so selfish. They always think of themselves and not how they affect or are treated by others. They can have something as close to perfect as they can find yet still they can find something wrong.
Life is not perfect. Things will not always go the way we want them to. Sometimes we have to think before we complain. Just because something little goes wrong, that doesn't give you the right to complain about it. Put things into perspective. Think of what is bothering you. Is it worth complaining about? Is it realyl an issue? Do you do the same thing but don't realize it?
We tend to expect our partners to be perfect and mindreaders. Are we so perfect that we can demand that from our partner? I don't think so. wise up or you might lose the best thing in your life!
I said this to myself when I looked into the mirror today.

Sorry.

Saying what you mean

I was talking to an old friend the other day and she told me that she and her bf had broken up. I asked what happened and she told me they had an argument and at the end he asked her if she still wants to be his gf.
I asked what she said and this is what she said "I told him no thinking that he would try to convince me to stay with him."
WHAT???????????????? Was she CRAZY???? Why on earth would anyone do something so stupid? It's like that song by The 4 seasons "big girls don't cry". It backfired in the song and it backfired on her. Now she is in a mess because the guy she loves thinks she is just playing with him.
People should just say what they feel, not say things to get a reaction if they don't believe what they are saying. This would stop a lot of problems.

Bad Feelings II

Well, I knew it. Something bad has happened.
I really hate when this happens.

To my baby, I love you Arleah. I miss you so much hon.

Bad Feelings

Did you ever have one of those days when you just know you are going to hear bad news or something bad is going to happen? Today is one of those days. I don't know what causes it but it usually is justified. I hope it isn't too bad.

I don't know what is worse though, finally getting the bad news or the waiting beforehand.

Oh well, bring it on!!!!! Let's get this over with.

Better days are ahead.

The New Year

Well, it's the beginning of a new year and at this time I usually reflect back on the past year and look forward to the new one. I like to look back and see what mistakes I have made and how I could have prevented them. I think about the good things that have happened and the not-so-good things. I also try to plan what I want to accomplish this year and how to go about doing it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. It seems that when I rely on myself only, I can accomplish more than if I rely on help from anyone.
Here is what I came up with.
Well, first the bad things. I went from working days back to nights again. The pay is better but I really hate working nights. It's hard to get a good sleep and everyone thinks you have all day to do things for them. After I clear up a big personal issue, I will try to transfer to days.
Another bad thing, my mother had a heart attack. She is doing better now but it was really scary. This isn't her first one and I was worried that it might be bad. I had to cancel my vacation but that is really secondary because it is my mom and her health. I was so happy with the way Arleah handled it. She was kind, understanding and just so sweet. I don't think she has a selfish bone in her body. That's just one of the many reasons I love her so much.
A third bad thing? Well, I was in a car accident. I totaled my car and injured my back. I have healed completely and I have a different car now.
Now for the good things.
I was able to meet the most wonderful woman in the world last year. She is just amazing. We really hit it off when we first met. I am sure you have read all the things I have said about her. hahaha. I think I sound obsessed! At first I was a bit worried that it was just infatuation. She is sexy and so pretty so was I just letting that interfere with how she was as a person? Well, there is no doubt just how wonderful a person she is. She treats me with respect, dignity and makes me feel like I can accomplish anything with her by my side. If I were to write about her only, I could fill this blog, and the next one, and the next one, and the next one and....hehehe.
another good thing, well, I was able to pay down a LOT of my debt. It has been weighing on my mind a lot so it was nice to see where I was January of last year and where I am now. I should have that problem solved by year end or earlier. That is exciting.
My kids are with me. I love my kids. Every night when they kiss me goodnight or wave goodbye when I take them to school I feel so good. If that wasn't good enough, my oldest was accepted into one of the top 3 universities in America. I'm so proud of him.
Did I mention that I met the most wonderful woman in the world? Hmmmm, I guess I did. hahaha.
Things are becoming clearer for me and my future. I know what I want and I think I know how to get it. I don't need miracles to get there, just not so many roadblocks. January has started off well and I have a good feeling about this year. Many changes in store and I believe, in this case, change is good.